Day 4 -

How do I make this interesting for you to read?
I'm not a writer.
I don't like to read what people did step-by-step in their day when they post it on Facebook.
So why would you want to read everything I went through throughout my day to share my progress in this test I'm doing?
I'm not sure, but maybe I'll figure something out eventually.

I slept pretty good last night, but still woke up tired. I was slow this morning in my routine and only did 10 minutes of my workout. My body felt tired doing the moves. I maintained my weight from yesterday, but I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing. I think losing a ton of weight in a week can lead to failure, so I'd like my body to lose the weight it needs to. When I think about why I may have maintained, it might have been because of the bacon I ate last night. Maybe it's a combination of having bacon for dinner and pork for lunch. I'm not really sure, but that's why I'm doing this test. I also don't want to fully rely on the scale, but more rely on how I feel mentally and physically. My belly did not feel rounded this morning which would be from bloating or inflammation. It still needs to trim down, but for now it is making it's way which is a good thing.

Afternoon: I had the same lunch as yesterday and I didn't feel as tired afterwards. I wanted to eat outside so I could start setting my goals for this month, but it's cold. Inside with people eating at lunch it is a distraction. I instead looked back at goals I set for myself last year and I could see the drive I had. The ideas that were alive. I think I need an accountability partner to keep me going, but how do I find one I can relate to? I want to laugh again over silly things like I used to with my best friend. I am happy to have matured, but those goofy times and inside jokes are also food for the soul. I miss it. I don't like to get close to people because they eventually go away, so I don't allow myself to get to know people enough to want to hang out with them on occasion. I accept more aquaintances than friendships. I also don't see people on a regular basis who are my age. My husband used to tell me he liked how I was when I was around my best friend. Not that he didn't like me when I wasn't, but I think it was a side of me that was chill and stepped away from being serious for a little bit.

I'm not sure why I just shared all of that, but I listened to a Team Call last night and it was about the 5 Second Rule which is if you have a thought about something, take an action on it within 5 seconds of thinking it. When we don't write something down or do what we were thinking, we put it off and most of the time never go back to it. So there you have it. That's what came to mind and I shared it. Maybe it's something I need to put out there to make a new connection.

As for the evening, I ate eggs cooked in butter and whole fat organic milk with a pork chop. Those eggs were delicious! No wonder they taste so good when my husband makes them. He must use a good bit of butter. Usually I'm easy on the butter or use olive oil cooking spray. It filled me up nicely and I'm not tired this evening.